I have had so many things to write about but for some reason, havent really had the motivation or the time to pen it down here.

However one of the key things that have been happening in my life at this time which i have to specifically mention is getting to play hockey again! Although I had thought that I had lost the passion to play hockey initially,(which I really had due to some people who contributed greatly to me not wanting to play hockey anymore), I strangely found myself wanting to play more hockey and even invest more time and money into this sport now.

Why the new-found passion and interest in hockey now?

CSSCOM hockey convenor on one fine day called me up asking me if I wanted to play hockey. And i reluctantly said ok, knowing I will probably not be able to contribute much to the team anyway, and especially when i had stopped for a whole year already. And I was unable to attend most of the trainings due to some other commitments( which I conveniently used as an excuse to not go for the trainings). However, one of the key factors that changed my mind was when i managed to find a couple of new friends, on top of one friend I already had in the team. They made me like hockey all over again and I really found it fun playing it. And especially when I realised that I can actually contribute to this team as a team player, I strived to train harder, although time was short and little in between. I really have to thank these guys for wanting to play hockey again and it was all about having fun yet again! Especially when I was in dire need to work out and sweat, this was a good time to remind myself that I had initially played hockey and should perhaps continue to play hockey.

I also loved playing for CSSCOM as despite not as fit as other teams or individually talented as compared to other formations, we were able to play equally if not better than many many teams and most importantly, we were able to play as a team. At times when we ourselves predicted a thrashing by other teams, we came out tough as a nut, giving our very best, matching them move to move, hit for hit, run for run, eventually only losing out in penalties. But we held our heads high and that's what CSSCOM is all about :)

Anyway, now that I have more friends that also play hockey, perhaps I can find an avenue to play hockey long-term, and be a better player myself (I still think I suck badly). And also remember the fact that I have many friends that at times forgotten and that is something that I shall never do again.
At times I may feel lonely, but all it takes is thinking back at all the times where I had friends by my side and getting back together again is the next best thing that I am looking out for...

It has really been some time since i last blogged in here and I guess there are a few reasons to this..

Life has been alot better recently, hence less emo-ing at home, hence not much of a need to blog to vent my frustrations..

Been meeting up with alot of my friends... Really really feels good to know I have them especially those close ones that i have had but just that havent been able to meet them in the recent months...

I am starting to wanting to play sports and run again... Feel good doing it again...
SHIOK running and the usual bball at KL's place.. And playing hockey for CSSCOM has been a pleasure...

But i SUCK big time in hockey I must say.. If I wanna play it regularly I must practise more and buck up!!

A few bad experiences have happened recently that totally changed some of my habits, for the time being at least... Oh my but i just hope things will clear up..

Did not club in a long time! kinda become a good boy uh...
The company's just not right/missing... hmmm wonder what's missing

Bad week... Ok weekend... Good start to the new week...

Happy Birthday MUM!! You will get your birthday present SOON!! :)

Is that what i really want in this relationship? Perhaps... I think so... 
It's been a while since I have had to make a decision... Been a while..
It's scary and I am afraid to make the wrong decision...
I will never get a second opportunity, others say...


Pray.Hard.Stay.Happy

2 days of the week has passed and approximately 30 minutes left before start of wednesday:- MIDWEEK!
Simply looking forward to the end of the week where I can perhaps sleep in peace for a long long time..

After Saturday's trip to camp early in the morning (equates to little sleep on fri day), and Sun's duty at camp yet again ( EVEN much LESS sleep on sat night >.<) and of course almost NO sleep on Sunday night as I was on duty... This basically means I had LITTLE SLeeP during the weekend and this = midweek deadness

It hence remains to be seen how I survive tomorrow and after tomorrow... Oh no...
Suddenly, memories of JC life flash by once in a while... Days of Activity... NIghts of Dota and Little Sleep...
Those days were simply Bliss... Living in ignorant bliss...

I want to relive those days again.. 

Basically one person to handle so many things in my work is getting a lil too much.. But at the same time challenging... Though i must say, It's getting rather irritating as I await answers, while fingers go pointing at eeach other, trying to push away the blame/work they are supposed to do...

HAIZ

After a horrendous and BORING weekend, all i can look forward to is the times I can perhaps spend with my family and friends this coming weekend... 
Perhaps I can look forward to running and Dotaing again...
Perhaps i can look forward to Movies and eating again..
Perhaps I can look forward to Hanging out and Drinking again...

hate being alone damnit..
Been good recently as I have had many opportunities to meet up with my friends... But that simply reinstated the facts that I am as strong/good/powerful/happy/fun/noisy as my friends around me..

This is the wrong time that it should all be happening..

If not now then when?

I don't know if my phone/network's really screwed up or people conveniently ignoring my messages.

Some act like total strangers, others simply ignore.

Perhaps Im just expecting too much from some.

Perhaps others are expecting more from me..

Perhaps this is just all wrong.

Friends are not exactly what they seem to be?
"They only look for you when they need help, if not MIA the rest of the times". --- Someone 

They say keep it simple..
But easier said than done?

Slow and steady wins the race.
But since when the race's been slow in this unpredictable world?

Oh fuck it

DO tomorrow.. SIAN..

Where people write in chronological manner, I am doing otherwise just for the sake of memories..
I do not want to forget certain days and certain events. 
Some may be traumatic, some may be pure bliss, but all nevertheless days i wanna remember for a long time

I think this was on the 21th March where it was the good friday..

Btw ever since I got my driving license, that period of time was the 2nd time i loaned a car through the long weekend, using a very old Mitsubishi Lancer, that had by then already over 200,000km..  o.o
After going around singapore alot in the last 2 days ( i took this car on the wed), I slept rather late on Thursday night...
Woke up at like 1pm on the friday even though I was supposed to meet my BMT buddies at that time -.-
Met them at Cafe cartel where they were already eating and me being the poor sad boy, i just watched them eat and we talked for a while.. Before heading over to paradiz for some good ole lan! 
It's beeen really really long since I last played dota properly and I already could feel myself getting rather rusty as I played.. after that drove off and went off to the east.. 

Went to meet my TJ hockey buddies to makan at simpang bedok and it was good seeing them, after all those days of not meeting each other... All the talking-cock and all, it was really good to feel it all again. It was really a good evening spent eating chatting and even a little drive down...

After my time with them, I then went off to pick up my dad from work and send him home and then hooted off to meet up with my HC mates! At that time they were at brewerks.. Hence I parked my car at a free lot opposite central mall and walked to brewerks.. thoughtful ck left me a chocolate brownies cake and it was fabulous.. And it was the same good ole cheena fun that we always had.. This time though i did not drink as i was driving and the others, Jiang Pi, Keng foo, african zhao xiu and muscleman YJ and of course the ring leader Ck, suggested we go for a ride..

Hence we initially went on a drive without any directions and it was kinda hilarious, zoomin down ECP with the windows down and the 2 gals screaming their lungs out.. After much deliberation over Dempsey, Changi, Thomson, Hougang and various other places, we decided on Changi as most of them lived in the east anyway. and ZX needed to get back home soon.. Hence we continued the drive down, dropping off zhao xiu and then down to changi.. Even though I was already full from all the simpang bedok makan, We still ate sommore at the coffeeshop at changi and it was fun i must say.. We even rode down to OCH again undecided whether to go in or not.. But it was not exactly a day for adventure as most of us were tired and all.. 

We then headed home and i dropped off one by one before I was all alone, driving back home.. 
At home at about 4am, it was way past the time my dad gave me but nevertheless, it felt good, being out with the ones who mattered most in the past and still there to make a difference in my life..

Any time guys..  :D